Single Mom With Teens: I’m Careful Who I Let Into My Life

A few years ago, I picked my daughter up from work. I’d been crying for hours and was still trying to get ahold of myself. She’d had a great night at work, had gotten a really big tip, and couldn’t wait to talk to me about it. 

I’d just had (another) disagreement with the man I was seeing about his drinking habits and was beside myself with anxiety and worry. I realized on our drive home that I was barely present for my daughter when she wanted to share something important with me.

I will figure out the empty nest.
I’m determined to prioritize my teens more than my relationships with others.

I apologized to my daughter for not being present for her

We sat in the garage, and I forced myself to clear what was going on with me out of my mind and focus on her. Then, I apologized to her for being distracted because even though she didn’t ask me what was wrong, I knew she knew my head was somewhere else. 

That night while lying in bed, I had to look hard at myself and my relationship — a relationship that had taken up a lot of my time and energy. That wasn’t the first time I’d struggled to be present with my kids because of him, and I felt tremendous shame.

I allowed someone into our lives who was only taking from us

While my kids liked the man I was seeing, it hit me that I was letting someone into my life who was taking from me. And because I was allowing that, my kids were seeing me upset, anxious, and unhappy, which was taking from them.

Being divorced with teenagers has been one of the loneliest feelings I’ve ever had. My kids are involved in their own social and work lives. They also spend a few nights a week with their father, so I have more time than ever. I had to admit that the loneliness clouded my judgment regarding who I spent my time with. It wasn’t fair to me, and it wasn’t fair to my kids. 

If my relationships hurt me, they impact my teens negatively as well

The night I picked up my daughter and was so upset I could barely concentrate on what she was saying was when I stopped allowing anyone into my life. I knew I needed to end the relationship and be more protective of my time and who I let into my life. Because even if my kids never meet everyone I come in contact with, whether it’s a friend, lover, or work colleague, if these relationships hurt me, they will hurt my kids, too. 

Of course, there are certain people we have to deal with in life, and I’m not saying to shut everyone out that makes you upset. That’s not always realistic. We are all responsible for how we react to certain people and if we let it affect the rest of our lives. 

I am saying that single mothers have children who are watching them and are often directly affected by their moods. I knew in that relationship I wasn’t my best self. I didn’t feel as safe or comfortable as I should have. And I was letting it bring me down, knowing there was no way for me to detach myself from the emotions and feelings I was having by staying with him. 

I can’t afford to have more drama and angst in my life

I’m now so conscious about who and what I let into my life. When my kids are with me, I need (and want) to be my highest and best self. My priority is to enjoy the last few years they will live with me. Dealing with extra drama or angst isn’t something I will put up with. 

My love for my teens is unconditional. There are conditions for friends, partners, and even family members I spend time with. You have to enhance my life, not make it more difficult. It needs to be an equal partnership. And these days, if I sense someone is wasting my time or they will make me upset, I have no problem creating space or cutting them off completely. 

As a single mom, I am responsible for who my teens are exposed to

Life can be difficult. And life as a single mother can be extremely difficult. I refuse to get distracted or consumed with anything or anyone that causes more turmoil. It directly affects my kids, and that’s not something I’m willing to do ever again. 

If you are a single mom, feeling like people or situations are bringing you down, don’t be afraid to eliminate them. Don’t worry if people tell you you are being too harsh or you need to let things go. 

You know what’s best for you and what’s best for your kids better than anyone else. 

The author of this post wishes to remain anonymous.

More Great Reading:

How to Help Your Teen Step Away from a Toxic Friendship

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Mary Dell Harrington and Lisa (Endlich) Heffernan are the co-founders of Grown and Flown the #1 site for parents of teens, college students and young adults, reaching millions of parents every month. They are writers (Lisa is a New York Times bestselling author), moms, wives and friends. They started the Grown and Flown Parents Facebook Group and are co-authors of Grown and Flown: How to Support Your Teen, Stay Close as a Family, and Raise Independent Adults (Flatiron Books) now in paperback.

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